I also have no idea how that relates to anything... oh well. By the way, the oreo's are mine and only I get to eat them. My sisters were so confused when they couldn't have any. That isn't mean is it? They got something too. I feel so much like I am justifying something bad here.
I feel lost, not bad, but lost. I feel like there is something more than what I have right now. Some great adventure waiting patiently to take me from the mediocrity of life. Now I understand the whole "life is an adventure" crap, but this is different. Also less lame. I can't shake the feeling that I am missing out. The daily grind of modern society just doesn't seem like an adventure to me. I don't get it.
Maybe I just need to give it some time. I'm worried though, sometimes I look around and think to myself some not so god like thoughts. Usually stuff about how this world is the pits. Don't get me wrong, I don't harbor suicidal thoughts but I do wish that this transitional stage in our existences could be forsaken. I think to myself that this world isn't worth the time and that it would be better if I could just speed my voyage to Heaven along a bit. Or a lot.
I just reread what I wrote above. Amazing how quickly God can work in someones life. I realized just how much influence Satan had on the above paragraph. How much selfishness was pumping through my heart. I was thinking solely on my own journey with God, however the truly important thing on this earth is to bring others to The Lord.
Meus cruor flows per vestri vena
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