Merry freaking Christmas!

Merry freaking Christmas everybody! Hope you all enjoy this uh... joyous day... crap, that sounded/read kinda lame.

Quite possibly more to come. I will show you all how much crap I get this year. Like I needed more crap.

Huh.

I have never been fully satisfied with my eyes.

Your Eyes Should Be Brown

Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

What Your Handwriting Says About You

You are sometimes a very energetic person, but you are sometimes quite lethargic. You're moody, prone to ups and downs, and you don't have a lot of endurance. You are very extroverted and outgoing. You are loving, friendly, and supportive. However, you are also manipulative and controlling at times. You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others. You need a bit of space in your life, but you're not a recluse. You expect people to give you a small amount of privacy, and you respect their privacy as well. You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart. You are a poor communicator. No one really knows exactly what you're getting at.

What Does Your Handwriting Say About You?

Your Personality is Very Rare (INTP)

Your personality type is goofy, imaginative, relaxed, and brilliant. Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 6% of all men You are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Didn't do to much today. Shoveled the driveway. Played some guitar. Should have played some flute.

I want to be back at camp right freaking now. Right now. Shoot.


Anyways, I should be off to bed now.

Goodnight.

Hot sauce

At camp a couple of buddies and I found some amazing hot sauce. This hot sauce helped us survive some of the nastier camp foods. It was awesome. I found some today.

It was a thoroughly exciting discovery.

I am beginning to feel the inklings that it is indeed Christmas time. Decorations, presents, a disgusting lack of appropriate snow. It is good times all over again.

I am disappointed in myself. Yesterday on the bus, I saw a kid intentionally sexually assault one of my friends. I didn't do anything. I really wanted to just walk up to him and put my foot in his face but I was too sissy about it. So now I feel weak and pathetic. Also and the worst part is I feel useless to Siobhan. I should have done something. I should have broke that kid. I still might. I don't know what to do.

Anyways, I found a very enjoyable band (For me anyways, don't actually look at any of their other songs. They are pretty bad.) They are called Mindless Self Indulgence. This is my favorite song of theirs. It is called Shut me Up. It has a little bit of language, but it is kind of disguised.

Hopefully that clip will work. By the way, the guy who directed this video is one of my heroes. His name is Jhonen Vasquez.

Talk more later.

Im gonna try something new

I am not going to post about the bad stuff in my life at the moment. Besides the fact that I just about threw my cat into the other wall. Not important.

Now I am not saying that I have anything more interesting to say, so bear with me.

Guitar was good today, Cadet band sucked as usual. My friend Devin got a speeding ticket on the way home from band. It was quite comical. He gave me a ride.

I found some drive somewhere deep inside my body and I should now be able to pass math with a decent grade. We shall see.

I am going to reconcile myself with mine mother now.

At least you can hide from your problems.

Mine follows me everywhere I go. I definitely need a monkey. It would probably be easier to deal with than my sisters. Also I would be able to talk to it without it talking back, and the screaming would be justified. I think Mum is going to try putting me through counseling. Wonder how that is going to work.

I had decided to post some pics of me in my new jacket. However I seem to have pulled a Hannah and my connection cord thingy has gone missing. Maybe later.

By the way, you should check out Forever Train on Youtube by Frame. I quite enjoy it.

Church was good this morning. We sat in the front. Spite unto you Josh and Cade, you back sitters. Anyways, good message. I had already kinda figured out what Pastor Dan was talking about. Meh, whatever.

I'm going to go mope now.

Exciting things

My braces are coming off sometime in the beginning of 2008. Maybe that will be my resolution this year. Get my braces taken off. Hey, just because it is happening no matter what doesn't make any difference. At least I will be able to hold to this resolution. Also, I will be getting contacts next time I see my optometrist. I am quite serious about it this time. Numerous occasions before I have attempted to obtain the darn lenses. So far it has been a no show though.

I got a new jacket and some jeans and a shirt this week. All of them are awesome. I might even get some pics of them up this weekend.

I take my leave now.

I have a box of Oreo's on my desk.

I also have no idea how that relates to anything... oh well. By the way, the oreo's are mine and only I get to eat them. My sisters were so confused when they couldn't have any. That isn't mean is it? They got something too. I feel so much like I am justifying something bad here.

I feel lost, not bad, but lost. I feel like there is something more than what I have right now. Some great adventure waiting patiently to take me from the mediocrity of life. Now I understand the whole "life is an adventure" crap, but this is different. Also less lame. I can't shake the feeling that I am missing out. The daily grind of modern society just doesn't seem like an adventure to me. I don't get it.

Maybe I just need to give it some time. I'm worried though, sometimes I look around and think to myself some not so god like thoughts. Usually stuff about how this world is the pits. Don't get me wrong, I don't harbor suicidal thoughts but I do wish that this transitional stage in our existences could be forsaken. I think to myself that this world isn't worth the time and that it would be better if I could just speed my voyage to Heaven along a bit. Or a lot.

I just reread what I wrote above. Amazing how quickly God can work in someones life. I realized just how much influence Satan had on the above paragraph. How much selfishness was pumping through my heart. I was thinking solely on my own journey with God, however the truly important thing on this earth is to bring others to The Lord.

Meus cruor flows per vestri vena