So much topic!

Well, where to begin?
I probably won't remember everything so don't hold me to it.

Friday, went to Kyle's house. Played video games. Made home made pizza. Met his Grandma Pat (she was so cute :) Woke up saturday. Did more nothing. Went home.
Saturday, after returning home, I changed into nice clothes and went to the Baptist Mid Year Celebration. It was cool. Good food. Good message. Move forward folks. That's what is important.
Sunday, forgot it was sunday, decided I wasn't going to school. Went to church. Last church service. Sorrow for what was lost, hope for what has yet to come. Went with Josh down to EB games and picked up... Guitar Hero 3! Such a stupidly fun game. Played that for approx. five hours. Went home at 9:30. Sleep.
Monday, School. Missed the first bus, then the second bus didn't come. Got a ride with dad. Awesome. School. Home. Went out got new shoes and haircut. Buzzed most of my hair off, and got strap shoes. Also got Neverwinter Nights 2: Mask of the Betrayer. Haven't even played it yet. So exciting. Ate at New York Fries, thinking about applying there. Went to Cadets, it was sports night, that was fun. Got yell at people.

That is the synopsis of my weekend. Talk to y'all later. I guess, those that read anyways.

-Amazement as the phoenix changes into an eagle-

Youth Group is great.

But I'm sure you already know that.
Dang I wish I could sing, and play music like most of the people in my youth group. I really can't sing. I can't play the guitar with them. The flute is definitely not working out. Meh oh well, life moves on.

My lip is so chapped and sore. It really sucks.
Not much else. Can't go to Vernon this weekend. Going to Haiti. Gonna miss the first meeting in November. Turning freaking 16 in November. Not much else.

-At the crest of it's flight the phoenix's flame goes out-

Cadets

Tonight was Cadets, I may be able to go to the band clinic this weekend! Sweet!
I wasn't going to be able to because of my church's funeral thing. Hooray for superficial people. Cadets was fun tonight. Got to yell loudly. (By the way I can yell really loudly) Taught a lesson. Left.

School was interesting today. Nothing bad happened. But my drive to care has really fizzled out. This might be a bad thing for the whole 11-12 years. Oh well.
Can't think of anything else. Goodnight everybody, or the few who read this drivel.

-The phoenix reaches the peak of it's flight-

Lullaby

Lullaby- Creed

Hush my love now don't you cry
Everything will be alright
Close your eyes and drift in dream
Rest in peaceful sleep

If there's one thing I hope I've shown you
If there's one thing I hope I've shown you
Hope I've shown you

Just give love to all
Just give love to all
Just give love to all

Oh my love in my arms tight
Every day you give me life
As I drift off to your world
Rest in peaceful sleep

I know there's one thing that you've shown me
I know there's one thing that you've shown me
That you've shown me

Just give love to all
Just give love to all
Just give love to all
Let's give love to all
Let's give love to all
Just give love to all
Let's give love to all
Just give love to all
Let's give love to all

This was the closest thing to our song that she and I had. By pure chance it came to mind tonight and I decided to listen to it and truly listen. After I had dug my way back out of that damning abyss of despair I realized how much this song actually means to me. It is interesting because it doesn't tie into what our relationship meant, but it does give an insight into what I tried to bring to us. No longer us. Separate and alone again. Pff it ended in the summer and I'm better now. Short little pain tonight but it is gone now.

Thought I should put it up.
The song is on youtube if you are interested. It does not matter in the slightest if you listen and like or if you listen and love. The only thing that matters is what it means to me.

Have an day.

-The phoenix arises new from the ashes-

Good moods last longer when family isn't around.

It's true, when my family isn't around I feel better. Is that wrong? Naw its fine. Josh and Andrew came over today, that was fun. Uhh, Josh and I played some Super Smash Bros. and then Andrew showed up randomly with pizza. It was sweet. We ate pizza then we watched an hour and a half of Family Guy! It was awesome.
Not much else happened, slept in to 1:10 today.

I'm in a good mood so I don't have any really philosophical stuff to throw down,

Making some Buffalo Chicken Bites for dinner... for myself... exciting!

I'm leaving now.

-Screams turn to wonder as the ashes stir-

Freedom for the weekend.

Parents are out of town this weekend. Exciting! Not. It would be exciting if mine sister was also gone. Another thing that would make it exciting would be the possibility of party, however I lack sufficient friends and resources for any such endeavor.

Oh well.

Meghan just walked through the room and crapped all over my good mood. Why is is always when I'm blogging? Maybe the bad mood will go away.

Oooh I got my braces tightened this morning and my mom went and bought me some T2's. Excitement abounds... Why don't I feel any different when I take them? I swear, I could take like freaking meth and it wouldn't make a difference. Not that I would try it to see whether or not it would.


I should think of something interesting that I can do whilst home alone... with Meghan. Hmmm, I think I will spray paint some miniatures eat some food and do computery things. But in what order?

-Screams fill the air as the eagle crashes into the earth-

Rebel without a cause.

I skipped math class today, slow down hold on. I can just hear your contempt already. WHAT your skipped a class!! Woah woah woah Bryon you are a terrible person and you should be punished. I have no excuse. I went to High Octane with Eric. It was cool, but I have less money than I thought I did which kinda sucks.
Anyways enough about school ( School was really long today!) I invented a new type of treat for myself. Actually I probably just haven't heard of it which is most likely. I took two Chips Ahoy cookies and put nine tiny marshmallows inside of it and nuked it for 10 seconds. Pure unadulterated bliss.
The cookie made me happy. All is now well.
Dang its back. That fleeting moment of happiness stolen by logical progression of thoughts. Bryon you will only be happy for a while, then the gloom will settle back in and you will feel like crap again. Stupid brain.

I think I will go make another cookie.

-Awe turns to shock as the eagle begins to plummet-

And so it begins.

Hot dang I feel like a loser.
I'm writing this mostly out of boredom, and I think to myself... who the heck is going to read this?
I doubt this blog will get much attention after a few weeks. Who knows though, maybe I will be blogging long after that. Maybe it is fun and exciting to vent your inner frustration on the internet for the masses to read.
Well, there is a lot to say. It helps to know that the chances of somebody actually reading this are fairly minimal but whatever.
We will start with the easy stuff that is at the top of my mind.
I despise almost every aspect of my life. School, Cadets, Band, Guitar, Me. All those things suck, big time. I could go through all the individual troubles but to tell the naked truth, there are no individual troubles. That happens to be one of the other problems by the way. I feel like I have been placed in a glass box. The whole world is around me and I can't actually experience any of it. On top of all this someone, sneaky person that they are, is pouring freaking sand into the container and I can't climb fast enough. All the time I must struggle against the mediocrity of life. Climb a little bit. Once you reach the top everything will be better. I understand that once I am dead everything will be better, but not in this lifetime. Eventually I will get to the top of that box of sand and everything will begin to look up. But then some jerk will show up and deposit me in another bloody box on the other bloody side of the bloody room and the whole process will begin anew.

Not an exciting prospect.

But amidst all this doom and gloom there are a few good things. Conversations with Kyle. Youth Group. My small group of friends. My camp friends, whom I have no idea whether or not I will ever see again. But thats ok, the time we spent together was worth only spending that short period of time together. Other exciting things occur some times. Things worth talking about, but only to certain people. I spent 85 dollars the other day on Warhammer 40k. I haven't even put them together yet and I already feel like I have been delivered an 85 dollar delivery. In simpler terms, it was worth every dang penny. What else is exciting in my life? Hmmm, I am reading and thoroughly enjoying a book lent to me by a friend. It is called Eisenhorn, and I seriously recommend it to any sci fi fans or Warhammer 40k fans. This book is amazing because it has provided me with a whole new freaking world for my imagination to explore... and I already knew most of the stuff that is in the book! Exciting huh?

Got some writing done yesterday. It will be nice to be able to hand something into Mr. Youds, my writing teacher. What I wrote was a little piece on making a meatloaf with potassium hydroxide. The base found in alkaline batteries. Oh darn, I have to specify that in my writing. Hopefully I won't forget to edit that... :S... hopefully it won't matter. (It will Bryon! It will!)

Anyquay as a friend would say it, it is getting really late for a school night. (School sucks!) I think it is about time to nod off. I suppose I will talk to whomsoever decides to read this nonsense at a later date.

-People cry out in awe as the eagle reaches the crest of its flight-